God in creating Man somewhat overestimated his ability.
-Oscar Wilder
Recently I often think of my grandma. She passed away several years ago. She was 70 year old and in her later years, she was paralysed but she was as sober as anyone else. She died peacefully and quietly.
Attached is a Chinese song which goes with my feeling right now.
The question of my Grandma
Grandma brought me up. It is said that I was not so happy when I came to this world, crying restlessly. In order not to disturb others, she held me out to the river bank until I fell asleep. My aunt told me that I was growing up in my grandma’s arms, my feet even had not ever touched the ground.
Back in her days she always asked me, what is the meaning that a man live his life? It is not that she bored life, it is just that she felt uncertain about ife, just as human beings of all races, or ages. Now she needs not to seek the answer to this question any more.
A universal dillema for human
She was not educated, knew nothing about the G20 summit, World Cup, or who on earth the US president is. But it doesn’t matter. The intellectual communication between people does not matter so much. A week ago I conducted an IQ test, which is said that only people with IQ above 200 could fulfill it. I tortured myself for one hour, and had no clue at all.
We are all definitely idiot compared to, say, a person with the 200 IQ index，But basically he is an idot as well, otherwise he can ask my grandma’s question. When you have reached certain age, certain point in your life, you will begin to contemplate this question.
Treasured love
Anyway, my grandma has ended her life, my life will go on. To man, death will eventurally exert influence on life, we need to consider the way how we live. Just like someone awarded you, I suppose that it is I’m lucky that I have been loved. Nothing in the world is earned for free.
I want to tell my grandma: ” Thank you, I’ll miss you.”
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